Informative
literature states MND does not affect the brain, so
I thought this would be a
good time to relate how my mind is coping with this ‘hellish disease’ as it
reaches a serious debilitating stage.
Well being a very realistic individual I’m surprised at how I’ve
accepted my present condition, bearing in mind my belief in euthanasia and opting for DNR (do not resuscitate). Whether my
fatalistic and contentment attitude (described below) has anything to do
with it,I don’t know, but I’ve still a great interest in what tomorrow
may bring.
First,
I’m a fatalist (what’s in front of
you will not go past you) having said that, I take the ‘life changing’
scenarios, mull them over- pick out what may be most beneficial to the family,
then ask Jean what she thinks of my thoughts. Although by this time I’m pretty
convinced I’ve decided the way to go. The next important thing is contentment, for me it’s a feeling of
inner satisfaction accrued over a lifetime of being happy with ‘our lot.’
To finalise 2013 we had a lovely Christmas
period with the 25th ‘rounding it off’ when all the family and their
partners visited, although we only had 8 for the meal, which by the way was
scrumptious. I had a 3 course meal with Allison, our daughter giving her Mum a
break from feeding me. It’s a long time since I ate so much at one sitting and
thoroughly enjoyed it. Oh! And not forgetting my two Speyside malts with a
touch of water, brought to life in a crystal glass and rolled around the mouth so
not to catch my breath. Rolling round the mouth to saviour the taste makes me
feel just like a real connoisseur. The
only downside to drinking now, is I’ve got to use a straw. And to get the
final dregs from my malts I need someone to hold and tilt the glass and ideally
hold the straw, but hey! I’ll persevere,
for as long as possible.
I do hope all my readers had a great Christmas too, and of course here's wishing you all a very Happy New Year.
