A photo of me at home

A photo of me at home
A new photo of me and Jean at home

Tuesday, 3 September 2013

Living with MND - 2009

First of all an apology to all Gordon's readers, I have been away for a few days and unable to upload his past thoughts. I will do my best to catch up and keep up your interest. Below is another historical instalment from Gordon. One thing Gordon does not say in his life with the lightwriter (a new one appeared in this note) is how much fun he has in trying to get it to speak the words typed 'correctly'. As some of you may know, machine speech is a bit false and jarring, so Gordon plays with spellings to see if he can 'correct' its speech, with sometimes rather funny results. He also tries to get it to 'speak doric', our local dialect, which, unsurprisingly it fails to do, but the machine tries and it never fails to amuse all visitors with its funny squeaks. All bits of mischievous light entertainment, which I am sure you will agree, he is very much entitled to try.
 
April
Jean’s mystery virus reappeared after an absence of nearly tree years, and so she was admitted to “The Infectious Unit” Aberdeen Royal Infirmary for eight days of tests: result was no further forward on finding the cause of the virus. 

August
Took collection of the new updated “Lightwriter SL40” speech communication aid: it has the facility to remember the words you use and the way you use them, so as one begins to type it will predict, and display words that you are likely to say next.

I had my assessment appointment with the Rehabilitation/Rheumatology Clinic. No real marked change in my condition so next visit in nine months time.  

September
Jean admitted to A &E for exploratory examinations: kept in hospital for three days: result was they found she had pneumonia, and it could take up to six weeks to get over.

October
Whilst Jean was in hospital, Ross, our son was coming in for “sleepovers” Unfortunately; he had a bad cold which he passed onto me.

December
Overall 2009 showed very little deterioration: weight has remained stable, and quality of life is good.


My Thoughts

With forward planning on her “feeling fine days” Jean had prepared freezer meals for emergency circumstances, such as being admitted to hospital on very short notice: it is part of our “emergency plan”.

I’m fiercely independent. My motto being (never trouble another for what I can do for myself) Jean and Ross are both very good at stepping back: yet so attentive when needed. The vast majority of people instinctively want to help when they see me persevering with any of my many daily tasks, but it gives me a great feeling of accomplishment when I complete it.

I suppose this year I’ve really upped my supple exercise routine. Anyway it’s a discipline, and with approximately 15 hours a day in wheelchairs with no pain I feel it’s worthwhile. At times I feel I’m not as supple as in the past, and am inclined to blame the MND, but I forget my age may be a factor.   

On hindsight loosing my speech was worse than my mobility: this really surprised me! However I consider I’ve adapted pretty well with communications through the use of what I’d call modern technology: mainly my Lightwriter, emailing, and texting. I also practice hand writing: at times its fine, others it’s a bit illegible, but overall Jean can usually read my notes.

Regarding the Lightwriter, It’s now three years since I got the original one so I wrote a letter to my speech therapist for “feed back” along similar lines to the following.

First let me say I’ve just taken on board what is beneficial to me at this time: “the full scope of the machine is far to clever for me”

I’m lucky I’ve a genuine interest in others, so if I get prior warning of our many visitors I store questions in readiness, and feed them in during the course of our conversation. Alternatively, I inject informative remarks and questions just like any normal speech.

The Lightwriter is ideal for up to four in the company, more than that I’m inclined to sit back and listen, punctuated by my occasional remark.  Outside in bright sunlight is a bit of a non-starter as people usually read the display screen as I type, but with my slow typing its easy to lose “the thread” of the story, or sentence.

As stated previously I caught a cold in October—the first real cold I’ve had for years! It’s amazing how my body reacted: because I’ve no ability to get rid of mucus, and phlegm –i.e. spitting, blowing nose etc. it exited in my bowel movement. (I suppose a bit like a baby)

Whilst on the subject of toileting as other muscles weaken I believe my bladder, and bowel muscles have also weakened. “To avoid, and minimise any accidents” the minute I feel a need for the toilet — I go! Because I’m anticipating going, and it can take me five minutes to be looking down at “the porcelain”--- and we all know “how long a minute is depends which side of the bathroom door you’re on”  

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